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God, why? My name is, Emese Bogya, I am 28 years old. In my whole life I had loving, understanding persons around me, and favourable circumstances made my life easy. I grew up in a happy Christian family with loving parents. I had no difficulty in learning. After graduating University I found a job very easily as a German teacher. Then I married. My husband, is a committed Christian and takes good care of the family. After 2 years of marriage we had our first son Aron and one year later Balazs, our second son was born.

Emese Bogya and her family

We lived the life of a happy family and everything went well. Till the 9th of July 2004 when we had a car accident. Seven persons were involved, among them 3 children. Everybody was injured more or less severely, and our little son Balazs (1 year and 2 months old) died. The physical pains can be eased, they will cease after a while, but it is much harder to bear the inner pain. That is why I am sharing how I was dealing with it. Being a Christian I have always been aware that God is the solution to everything. He is the One who lets things happen, who helps me when I face difficulties, who answers my questions. And He is the One whose word is true. So I knew from the very first moment that He knew about what had happened to us. Not only then, but also now I say: He is in control of everything. He is so wise that He knows what is better for us, although it is hard for us to understand. I have not understood yet why He has taken back our child, maybe I will never do.But I experienced "the peace of God which passes all understanding" (Philippians 4:7). This is what I can tell: I had an inner peace through all the time. It was not easy to live with the loss. I carried it like every mother who loses her child. I was grieving over him. But in all these circumstances I had the peace, He gave me thanks to His caring love and thanks to the number-less prayers of many brothers and sisters in many churches. I have never asked: God why? I felt, I had no right to do so. Who am I to question His decision? Who am I to call to account the Creator of the Universe for taking our son back from us? It is true that God always gives enough strength that is needed in a given situation. If I had known before what was going to happen, I would have probably said: "No, that is impossible, I will not be able to face it" But when I had to, I did face the loss with God's and our loving friends' help. The brothers and sisters supported us in every way they could: physically and spiritually. And it was good to know that I have a living son at home (our first son Aron, who survived the accident) waiting for me, and a loving family. The love of many people was tested after our accident and they all passed the exam by showing their deep concern for us in prayers, words and deeds. My wish for the future is to be also ready to show interest for others when it is my turn. With kind regards, Emese Bogya, Baia Mare, Romania   back to top Table of Contents